Happy 1/4 year birthday beautiful girl! We wish you were celebrating today here on earth with us, rather than in heaven. I can hardly believe it has been 3 months today since I went in to the hospital to have you, and since we got to meet you for the first time. Daddy and I were so excited when we were first told that we had a daughter, and we proudly announced your name! I still remember the first thing I heard one of the doctors say when you were born - she told one of the other theatre staff that you were sooo beautiful! And she was so right about that! We had such a hard, but joyful, week with you Hannah; but it will never feel like enough. It wasn't enough. But as it is all we had, we will continue to treasure every moment of it. We can't wait to spend more time with you once we get to heaven - and I'm sure you will show us around and introduce us to all your friends up there ;)
I hope you know that as your Mummy and Daddy, we love you so much; and that you are still our precious first child. Jeremy and I are still parents, and we still have a daughter. It's just that the Lord is babysitting you for us until the day when we can hold you again ;) You will always be an important part of our family.
I received a gift in the mail the other day, just in time for your 3 month birthday. It is a beautiful bracelet, with your initials on it. So now I wear your footprints on a necklace, and your initials on a bracelet! It is a priviledge to be your Mum and to carry these reminders of you around on me. The bracelet is beautiful, and was such a thoughtful and encouraging gift!
The card that came along with this gift read that God is using your life for such a big impact. It said that your life has given me as a Mum the opportunity to minister to the lost and to help others to heal from their pain. That God has allowed us to be on this path, and that He will see us through to the end. That He catches every tear that we shed. And that He is never far away.
The card concluded with a verse from Isaiah 43 that I love - "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you. And when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire you will not be burned, and the flames will not set you ablaze"
God has, and is, and will continue to, be with us through this journey. He sustained us through the pregnancy and through our week after you were born Hannah, and He will continue to give us the strength we need as we grieve and miss you desperately. It is so painful and hard, but God is faithful.
Happy 3 month birthday Hannah Grace. I love you.